Depression

"The start of depression settling in"

What is depression? What is this weird feeling that I am having? Why do I feel like my body is shutting down at the age of 14? Well, depression is very deep, before I was diagnosed with Major Depression at 22, I had already been experiencing depression very deeply. It affected me in so many ways. The way I performed activities in school, struggling trying to keep my grades up, the ways I interacted with my friends even changed. Depression why? what did I do wrong to deserve experiencing this horrible thing at such you age?

Again what is depression? Depression is a (major depressive disorder) and it is a common and serious medical illness, that negatively affects how you feel, the way you think, and how you act. Depression causes feelings of sadness and/or a loss of interest in activities you once enjoyed.

To go through this at a young age is really terrifying and heartbreaking. I would never want to hear or see anyone go through this, let alone a child. Its beyond devastating. As a child/teenager your supposed to be enjoying your childhood life, connecting with other children/teens, finding your identity, trying to figure out what you would like to do when you graduate high school. What colleges do i want to apply for? what type of degree would you like to pursue in? Do you even want to go to college maybe you want to go into the military, do a trade or just I dont know get with a company and work within corporate America.

The point is during those times we as people should not be experiencing devastating trauma that causes PTSD, severe anxiety and major depression. These thing negatively impact your life in so many ways, as for me i didn’t even know who I was, I went through so many negative experiences losing jobs, wanting to commit suicide and just end all the pain. Pain from trauma hurts, depression hurts, anxiety hurts the flashbacks on the things you went through that got you here hurts.

About 7 percent of men and 1 percent of women who have ever been diagnosed with depression die by suicide. At its worst, depression can lead to suicide. Over 700 000 people die due to suicide every year. Suicide is the fourth leading cause of death in 15-29-year-olds.

Not too many people realize how serious depression is. Its very serious its affect our daily lives and if you are someone that feels you may be experience. Seek help please, taking your life is not worth taking your life seek help, therapy, try medications, herbal treatments, meditation, etc. Please get treated and seek some help. You are not alone. Whatever happened to you is not your fault, the person who caused this to come upon you are responsible for what me, you and the rest of the lovely people in this world dealing with the same things that we are.

Depression caused me to not be able to walk across the stage and receive my diploma with my class of 2010. It cause me to go into to life drinking and popping pills to cover up my pain. I didn’t know I was even experiencing all these things. I never knew why i had so much anger built up inside. I did not know how to go on and conquer the world. Now that I am 29 i seeked help, therapy was the number one best treatment for me. Speaking to someone who doesn’t know you and actually care to help you is beyond amazing. Medication has helped me a lot. Did i still run into walls? HELL YES! But what i did was mentally told myself “Shayanna get up you got this, everything will be okay.”

Also having an amazing support system from my husband and certain friends to be there for me has been a great significant help. My most important person has been my husband without him I would have taken my life, I wouldn’t have the confidence to get up from a broken point and continue on with my life and conquer the goals that i want to achieve. Me here right now in the moment I am being vulnerable with each and everyone of you to share my story and let you know that you are never and not alone.

GET UP, SPEAK UP AND TAKE ACTION. YOU CONTROL YOUR LIKE NOT YOUR TRAUMA. YOUR VOICE AND ACTIONS MEANS EVERYTHING…